Picking myself up

the last few days have been kinda hard, indeed, but now i'm back on tracks.
funny how i didn't feel like writing on this blog anymore......... like if the reason i was keeping up with this weird diary had suddenly vanished away. like if the idea of a whole bunch of people gathered tightly around one beautiful idea had suddenly lost its relevance..........
but now it's okay. i'm back on tracks. i think i just lost a bit of my courage at some point. i guess it's bound to happen sometimes. i guess it's alright.
isn't it ?

sometimes, it's so hard to keep up with what's right - what you think is right.

(sometimes, there's god so quickly.)

but it's like they say in that madonna song :
"have you ever been hit so hard that it sends your body flying through the room ?
we all fall to the floor at some point.
it's how you pick yourself up,
that's the real challenge,
isn't it ?"

whatever.

i could quote the whole song anyway.

what did i want to say to you ?

in the metro, on my way home from my aunt's, i watched people's feet - i watched their shoes, different coulours, different shapes. somehow, it made me feel calm. most people were in couples. that made me feel calm too.

elodie sent me a message from cannes : she saw eva mendes coming out of her hotel, wearing a blue dress. i wish i could see her too - and i wish i could see elodie seeing her.

i feel very calm, thats what i wanted to say to you. it's kinda late now, almost one a.m. and i feel very calm.

i had a very good work session with maya today. incredibly good. we came up with wonderful ideas for her scenes. and she came up with the most powerful idea for the sfx scenes. i must tell françois about it, i hope he'll be as thrilled as i am.

(it's really, REALLY, a wonderful idea. i'll write it down in the script tomorrow.)

and then, she bought me a soap - litteraly. i was out of soap, and we were hanging out in this tiny shop where they sell all those bio things, like tofu crackers and fat free-sugar free-salt free dehydrated food - and she bought me a soap. that was so cool. thanks to her, i'll take a shower tonight.

i'm joking, but i really like the girl. i feel comfortable around her. she's a true friend. (cf. the soap.)

it's so cool to feel surrounded with friends in the process of making this film. it's so nice to feel all those intelligent and creative people working their ass off to make my visions come true. thank you all, guys.

and good night.